i'm feeling kind of elitest so i think i'll move to livejournal. i don't know why i have such a negative idea of what lj is all about, it just always seems so icky to me. but i'm joining anyway, because i'm a follower, not a leader. i think it's because i like those avatar thingys. only mine right now is a lame ass but super funny dilbert cartoon.

i lost my voice. since i have larengitis i decided to update.

hey, i quit one of my jobs. sort of, i half quit. so that's good right?

what else happened?

sophomore family weekend! hey! i got my ring!! it's like a super big deal here when we get our rings. i love mine. it's so pretty. i think i'm going to make it an airloom. can i do that? did i even spell airloom right? wait! it's HEIRloom. i'm a DUMBass.

i really need to shower.

wait, what if i move to lj and i don't have any friends, and then i'm an lj loser? elitest bastards.

hey, speaking of new gilmore girls...gilmore girls is new tonight. kansas is coming over to watch, holler.

i'm hungry all the time. spring break is next week, so i was trying to go on a water and lettuce diet, only then i decided that should include egg omletts and brownies too. so that didn't work out really.

nisha is coming on spring break! yay! wait, if i join lj, do i have to think up code names for people? i do that only for kansas, and i'm not sure why, i think i just invade his privacy more than anyone else on my blog. ok, what should people's names be? i don't think too many people here read my gournal anyways. i think i'd be kind of weirded out if they did. hmm. i REALLY need to shower.

i turned in my study abroad thing late. well, i turned it in on time, but it's not finished. i had like a month to do it, but i thought i could get it finished in a day. turns out i was wrong. hey, i don't even know if i want to go to scotland. ok, of course i want to go, but there's so much paper work. what if i fill it all out and then i decide i'd rather go to germany? ok, i don't want to go to germany, but what if i did? what if i don't get in? what if i loose one really important paper? what if i don't get a green card thingy? what if my passport expires (it did, three days ago...is that bad?)

surprisingly, all these things are not as important as showering. i really need to do that.

ok, so if i don't come back, it's because i moved to www.livejournal.com/users/scientistic. if you think that name is lame ass, feel free to let me know. i think i thought it up when i was in like 7th grade and i signed up for an account but haven't used it until now. so i'm open to suggestions. 

alright kids, it's been real.

why am i not in bed or studying? why! why! why!

why am i taking 22 hours and also have two jobs? why why why!

ahh, feeling much better.

ok, i need to quit something, because it is otherwise highly likely that i will go crazy, but A) i don't really want to quit anything and B) there will be weird awkward consequences depending on what it is. i could stop teaching swim lessons, because i don't need the money really, because my internship is paid, but i really do like teaching and it might be a good job if i stay here this summer. but on the other hand, i could just get rid of the last hour of lessons. i told jessica that but she said she didn't really want me to unless i really had to. but does that mean wait until i really can't take it anymore and i die or something?

i could only do 10 hours at my internship, but i don't want to give them the impression that i don't want to be there by doing the bare minimum. but maybe if i explained it to them it wouldn't be so bad. it's not like they're giving me tons of stuff to do.

i was totally planning on stopping piano lessons, but it turns out that i really like the piece i'm playing and plus it's really short. but i'm not exactly sure when i'll practice.

ideally i would drop a class, but i either a) like it a lot or b) need it for a requirement and don't want to take it later.

kansas and i watched the first few seconds of mr. ths today before i realized it was the dumbest idea in history. but i looked at his high school yearbook while i was at his apartment so i guess we're even. speaking of kansas, we sort of got into a pretty big fight on friday night, which i guess was all my fault. but on saturday i think we mutually decided to forget it ever happened. is that a good thing? for the most part we don't really fight, so i guess it's not a big deal. and i know why he was angry and what i have to try and change so i guess it's better we didn't have to have a "talk," or anything.

i know i said i already had 390858493025892058 things going on, but i just started asctv with cecelia. it's a music show and it's going to be kickin. we have to think up a logo and a set list type c&c music factory, but we're open to suggestions. considering we thought up 48932081 band names, i think we're in okay shape. or shitty shape depending on how you look at it.

speaking of secret handshakes, i got initiated to Sigma Alpha Iota tonight. boy it was wild.

for some reason the shuffle on my itunes is so much better than on my ipod. maybe i'm imagining it, but i think my ipod really likes reggae. my itunes on the other hand really likes indie rock. hmm.

ooh, guess what i heard? jason mraz got herpes from tristan prettyman.

it's your godforsaken right to be loved - says jason mraz in this i'm yours song i'm listening too. yummy.

hey, i think on my tv show, we should just make super good looking people come on. you know what sucks! this fashion show after us is getting like 4 hours or something. hello! fashion for four hours? can't these people just watch e! or something?

i'm not sure about this whole studying abroad thing. of course i'm going to do it, or at least apply, but i don't know where i'm going. ok, that's not true, i think i'm going to scotland. wait, did i already write about this? ok, nevermind.

hey, do you think once we and cecelia get our band together we can plan world domination through our tv show?

i sort of want the show to be like the rosie odonnell show, where we throw those koosh balls at the audience. except we don't have an office, we're in a teeny room. maybe we could do it anyway, cause that would be pretty funny.

i have to cash a check. when am i supposed to do that? aren't banks only open for like 5 minutes in the middle of the day? wtf. who decided that?

i think it's kind of weird whose blogs i read. but you know, maybe someone really random reads mine. oh well. hello friend.

my ipod is playing too much dixie chicks and not enough barbra streisand.

wow. ok 1 am, time for bed.

it's my birthday on february 1st. my 20th birthday. doesn't that seem old to you?

i really want to see dr. dog and ambulance ltd but they are playing during spring break. which by the way i still don't know what i'm doing for. maybe i'll just stay with kansas that whole week and we can go. or something something.

i just decided i really like this band everybody else. i saw them at cbgb's this summer (i think i wrote about that, but can i just say that the only thing punk about it was the absence of locks on the bathroom doors? otherwise it was just a bunch of 16 year old good charlotte fans, me cecelia and robert carmine.) anyway, i just looked at their website and it was pretty special.i wonder where i can download them. ok, i should probably buy the cd, cause they aren't signed and that would be the nice thing to do.

a lot of really cool stuff happened this week. i got this internship that i really wanted, but i'm still really stressing about the 22 hours that i'm taking. i think i might drop piano lessons. they switched my professor to the crazy one who doesn't speak english. so that would be 21 hours. i can handle that.

i'm a finalist in this writer's festival thing, and if i win, edward albee will workshop my poems with me. i hope i don't win. that would be so intimidating. i would break out in hives. fucking edward albee.

kansas is moving this weekend. i want to go to rusans for my birthday this weekend. i think i need to make a reservation, but i've just been inviting everyone i see, so i don't know how many people are actually coming. i think maybe i should get on that or something. like make a list.

ok, i really need to clean my room and do laundry, cause i'm living in filth. really.

off to teach swim lessons. hey i was teaching my favorite kid...harry, to dive and he was about to go but instead he swung his arms back and hit my nose so hard i cried. but i didn't want him to see me cry cause he's like 6 and that would be pretty tramatizing right?

speaking of weird stuff, cecelia and i were at javamonkey and this guy was sitting RIGHT next to us and this girl comes in and they are like on a blind date or something, but he keeps talking about his ex girlfriend and how she wrote mean stuff about him on her blog, and then the other girl is like why the hell did you ask me on this date if you still want this other chick. and he said, woah this isn't a date. she was like we met on a dating site. and he said you can also meet friends or activity partners. and then she flipped out and left. cecelia heard the whole thing but i had my headphones on so i missed most of it.

but didn't you think activity partners meant sex partners anyway? maybe i should change my friendster. speaking of friendster, i'm really sad that asc isn't on facebook yet. seriously, could we be more dorky? i mean, isn't smith on there! elitist bastards!

ok, seriously time for swim lessons.

hey, long time no see. or write. whatever.

so i was worried because i didn't get my portfolio back from my poetry class. i was worried it got lost in the mail. and even though i knew my grade in the class i still wanted to see what my professor thought of it, because she's the coolest. so i emailed her. she said that the couldn't fit the portfolio into the envelope that i gave her, but my portfolio was excellent. YES. and that's also really great because i'm taking a class with her next semester. and since i suck at all the music classes i'm taking, at least i'm kicking ass in my english classes. holler.

ok, i didn't get an alpaca for christmas, but i did get an ipod. i haven't put my cds on it yet, but i've put my mp3s on there. i think i still have room for like 889302869403829068 songs or something.

bright eyes is playing on my birthday in atlanta. i might go with cecelia.

the biggest greatest news ever? kansas is moving to atlanta. no more long distance relationship! yay! now he can come over all the time and distract me from studying! yay!

i figured out how to download songs from that archive place. and HEY! all it took was reading the freaking directions.

i think i need to download bear share or something. or hey! i could just buy cds.

so i practically lived at victoria's secret during my break. i made some money, but i think i spent quite a bit of it. why is it that i spend more money here than at school? that seems odd. but then again, i buy lunch and coffee and stuff during the day, and at school i don't do that. i'm also surrounded by panties and bras all day and for some reason i feel like i need to have ALL of them. guess WHAT? panties and lingere are going 50% off the DAY i LEAVE. but i think i'm going to be allowed to put stuff aside and have my mom buy it for me. sweet.

i'm downloading new jason mraz right now. it's pretty good. i was a little worried there for awhile, because i thought prettiest friend and geek in the pink weren't quite up to par. but please don't tell her might be my new favorite song. hey, do you know how to make shn. files into mp3s? i think i read how to some where, and i think it involves downloading something or something. can i put shn. files on my ipod?

hey, what happened to mr. rendell's xanga?

i think i might go see a movie with my mom tonight. woot woot.

i can't wait for second semester. even though i think i might have accidentally signed up for like 22 hours or something.

i'm going through a weird ray charles faze. i haven't seen the movie but i've been listening to that duet cd and his greatest hits.

i made cookies today.

i went to mr./miss ths. despite the show being 4 and ONE HALF HOURS LONG, it was funny. and only slightly weird to see/hang out with high school people.

i really want an ipod for christmas. that way for the rest of break i'll have something to keep myself occupied. yay!

i think i'm going shopping with my mom later. i also think i still have to do christmas shopping. i wonder when i get paid from victoria's secret. hopefully soon as i am broke. broke broke broke.

i haven't heard back about that internship. i really really really hope that i get it because it will fully pay for my rent if i decide to stay in atlanta this summer, which i really want to do. which reminds me, i have to finish my resume. hmm. well, it's done i just have to change it. i think i meant i have to write some cover letters. eww. what the hell am i supposed to write for that?

did i mention it's fucking cold outside? and there's snow on the ground? oh atlanta, how i miss you.